My dearest Pamela I miss you so much. It has been more than eleven weeks since you left me. They have been very hard to cope with and many a tear has been shed while remembering you.

In order for me to try and keep my own life together so that I can put in place the things that I want & need to remember you by. I have been travelling to friends and family all over the place. I have managed during this time to arrange for your memorial at the crematorium, which will soon be ready to look after your worldly remains. This will give family & friends a place to go to be near you. I will be there often. I have also sorted through the many photos we have to find some lovely pictures of you. I have had these enlarged & framed and will fill the house with them, so that I can always have your beautiful face to look at and admire wherever I am.

My dear dear Pamela, I miss you so much. My life is empty without you. I hope you don't feel that I let you down in any way, I would gladly have given my life for you at any time. I could not possibly have found a  more beautiful, kinder, caring & more loving person in the world to have as my wife. You are wonderful and I will remember you so closely forever & a day. Sleep peacefully my darling now you are rid of your terrible torments.

With all my love and thoughts forever.